damned!

Damn! I am entitled to my own feelings, why can't they be happy with that.
Damn! I will face my own demise.
Damn! What an overkill!
Damn! Where the hell is my head!
Damn! Who picked these jury?
Damn! Am I really in trouble?
Damn! I've never felt so humiliated in my entire life.
Damn! Who stole the cookie from the cookie jar?
Damn! I don't even like that cookie.
Damn! Are you still reading this??
Damn with ovulation period!
Damn with nasty hormonal imbalance!
Damn with everyone who didn't get it!
Damn YOU!!!

space between

I have a lot of things to think about today - birthday gift para ako friend officemate, another birthday gift for another friend office.. nagsunod gyud ila birthday. Paet kaayo life nga torn between happy for someone and succumbing to your own super-hurt feelings. As in, feeling nako naa ko korean novela - ang scene ang bida nagsakay sa bus nga kahilakon nga dili kahilak kay OA ra kaayo magpadayag ka sa imong nag-uros-uros nga gibati sulod sa bus nga puno ug senior citizens. I am about to buy gifts for my friends but huot kaayo akong dughan. Mao na nihapit sa ko aning akong blog nga milenyo na nako wa na-post- actually dili gyud ko super blogger. I quit sublimating through my diaries ages ago.. Pero today ako lang gyud gipatuyangan ako kaugalingon nga magdrama-drama diri. As in... sa kadaghan nako nacounsel, maglisud ko ug am-am sa akong kauglingon. Unsa kaha ako nakaon nga praning man kaayo ko these days, labi na today. I prayed for today to happen and it did. The truth shall set you free and in my case it's about to close my heart.. but not for long i guess. I thought I knew them but they are more than what I pictured them in my monochromatic mind. Promise, it hurts, you know! It hurts and kapoy muguba sa imong well-thought of nga delusions. Wala na lang kay mabuhat kundi makontento, ako pa maayo kaayo ko anang Kontento lang. Maayo na lang kaysa magpuyo ka sa Aghanistan or sa North Korea ba kaha. Sa kasakit sa akong dughan, nicompensate akong tiyan. Pwerte kakan-unon na au ko ug ice cream, pizza, takuyaki, sundae ug uban pang comfort food sama sa mongos paresan ug pancit, hipon nga gigisa sagulan ug pinakupsan nga pork, bbq... hay naku ug uban pa. Mao na kung heartbroken man gani ka, huna-hunaa na lang nga daghan pang bug-at ug problema nimo, sama anang unsaon paglikay sa bala kung mag crossfire ang mga rebelde. Di ba? suwerte ra kaayo ta kay ato rang gikabusyhan kay ang atong gugmang gichuva... Busa magpagawas na lang ko sa akong gibati karun kay anyway wala may mubasa ani lain.. as in sure gyud ko.. Waaaah... kapoy na hilak... pwede idive na lang kuni or ikaligo kaha ug dagat.. swimming ko next week.. or pwede pud watch ko here comes the bride if extended pa xa... hmmmm.... hmmmmmmm. hmmmmmmm....watch sa ko korean movies kay mawala gyud akong stress ug binasa sa subtitles.. amazing maayo na kaayo ko mubasa samtang magtan-aw sa actions.. salamat kay na fast reader na gyud ko hehehe... unsa pa man akong pwede buhaton pagawas sa akong gibati ha... kung muadto ko sa simbahan, hala muhilak ra pud ko... if mupalit ko something barato diril fiesta mall, akong budget maguba.. if mukaon ko, akong no-rice diet ma invalid.. unsa naman ni.. padayunon na lang ko ning sulat-sulat diri ug watchamacallit...

pan,taho, durian-flavored ice cream and more

Homemade ice cream, taho, pan sa prizza's... comfort foods at a reasonable price. The other night I craved for some ice cream on top of the choco german bread and a liter of pepsi. I had durian and pandan flavored ice cream for only 10 pesos. It is cheaper and it is homemade, just like the original flavor of the road, tiling-tiling as I usually call it. No wonder I hit 112 on a scale!Darn, I need to do more than brisk walking.

road kill

Something not so good has been going on these days. In the span of 2 weeks, we have seen two dead bodies sprawling along the street. According to reports, both men were shot in the head. It's a good thing that police officers were already on the scene and bystanders crowded the street... I mean, imagine if we are caught in the middle of the shooting. It was quite surreal and it shook me a bit. My sister was quite brave and actually look at the body, I hate seeing blood so I just took a glance. We can't help but noticed them because the area is our usual route. My father didn't look because he didn't want to be disturbed with the ugly sight while driving. My grandfather passed away a couple of weeks ago (God Bless His Soul), but it was quite a big difference seeing a dead body in a wake compared to seeing a dead man swimming in a pool of blood. I was quite for a few minutes... God bless their souls.

An eye for an eye? Vigilant killings? Street justice? Whatever it was, these men belong to a family... I still believe in due process.

Maligayang Araw ng Kalayaan Mahal Kong Pilipinas!

Philippines, Pilipinas, Las Islas de Filipinas, Pinas... my beloved country, my homeland, I love thee!

suroy-suroy blues

I miss going out on a road trip with friends. Summer is almost over and PAGASA recently declared the early start of the wet season (hmmm interesting weather). For me it's never too late! A couple of days ago I harassed my officemates into accepting my invitation for a road trip. So today is laag day! Those who signed up are the "walay lingaw sa life"-- luz, lalaine, joan, ester and pareng jomar (our non-academic scholar in the office). I can't wait to upload the pictures! (more photos on my facebook) Anyway, we didn't have an itinerary because that's the idea of it all lol. Well, we decided to spend most of the hours at Mantayupan Falls, Barili, Cebu and the rest we spent it on eating (as in pakals!), chika-chika, goofing around and picture-picture!!!

How many times have I been to south of Cebu?? A hundred trips already (sure??)... but I'll never grow tired of exploring the outskirts. I may not be a hardcore adventurer but simply I love the simplicity of God's creations. Cebu is blessed with these simple wonders and they surely rejuvenate the soul.

Mantayupan Falls, Barili, Cebu

This is how we grill! Grill for rent... thanks for making Ester's load a little lighter. Ester was assigned in the food prep.. Thanks super-kusinera Ester!!!

Ahmm Pareng Jomar, can you still breathe in there?
Lifeguard on duty -- with my niece around I have to watch over her round the clock. She doesn't know how to swim but she was brave enough to wade through the cool waters alongside the many adults and children who occupied every breathing space in the area. I salute all the lifeguards in the world!!!

The road-trippers eagerly clamoring for the ice cream which didn't come back lol... get the joke? Ice Cream is BACK- you know BACK... lol corniks!! Actually their ice cream machine was broken so no ice cream for the day but we settled in with their freshest fresh milk. Btw, I like this picture because my 5-year old niece was so game and joined us in our not-so childish shenanigans... good role models guys!!! lol

At the Molave Milk Station, Barili, Cebu

The group happened to drop by Brgy. Mantalongon which was celebrating the feast of its patron saint, San Isidro Labrador, who is the patron saint of the farmers. Looking at the signages along the highway, we found out that they are also celebrating the Carabao Festival. So this beast was the star for the day and we never missed the chance of having a photo op with the mighty kalabaw! :)

Last stop for the day is the Acacia Grill in Carcar, Cebu. Carcar is famous for its shoe industry sort of the Marikina of Cebu. One can assure of its durability if it is made in Carcar. Hmmm... I wonder when they would make the other pair of this shoe... Anyway, mamu & ester bought some sandals while the rest of us kay nag-picture2x!!!

Happy Mamu's Day

Words are not enough to describe this wonderful woman who has lived all her life for her family-- My Mama Poding!!! Well, she preferred to be called Dence short for Prudence. An hour ago, I saw my mother teaching my niece the proper way of writing the alphabet and a special memory came to mind. My Mama merely graduated from high school but I attributed my interest towards education from her. I remember an afternoon in the public labahan where my mama taught me how to write my name. She has the patience of a real teacher when I seemed to write the letter z backwards. I like my mama's handwriting although lately she candidly admitted that she doesn't like her penmanship. This time the table has turned, every now and then she lets me write for her. Little did she know that she inspires me to write legibly. My mama was also my tutor during my developmental years. She instilled in me the love for learning and always reminded me to do better in my studies. She and my papa are my inspiration to do good in school and I offer all the academic recognitions that I received to them.

Just like any other homemakers, my mama taught me the basic chores from assembling firewood to build a fire for cooking rice to washing the clothes. All of the mundane household chores I learned from my mama at an early age. No matter how strained her body is, she always has the extra strength whenever our body failed us. When my sisters gave birth, she was there for them on a graveyard shift. When I was suffering from as asthma as a kid, she patiently and religiously brought me to a "manghihilot". My mama dreamed to be a nutritionist but that dream never became a reality but nevertheless she has accomplished a big deal in her career as a dedicated mother. She became our teacher, doctor, career adviser, nutritionist, caregiver, motivator and the list can go on forever.

Growing up in a poor community, my mother never let us feel deprived. Despite the financial difficulty, she made it sure that we, her children, go to school with dignity. We never went to school looking unkempt. She once said that she and papa maybe poor but their kids always have clean clothes to wear. I never forget that from my mother. Hopefully if I have my own family I'll instill the same values that my my mama has inculcated in me.

I am grateful for the gift of family and for blessing us with Mama Dence...

Happy Mother's Day Ma and to all the mamas in the world.